Sunday, August 29, 2010

Alone

A day walking alone at orchard road, a day found myself so lonely, a day found that everyone seem like looking down on me, a day have a lot of though but not able to organize them, a day don't even dare to look at others when walking, a day have no idea on what I going to do next, a day like this..... WASTED!!!!

I went to Muji and got some material to rearrange my life. Some small exercise books that same size as those we used in Sec school and some color pencils. I am going to note down Cooking menu, iPhone apps ideas, photography skill and gift ideas on all these books. I believe that organized life is the way to move on.

2 songs from Wang Lee Hom... time to do something and everyone know what I going to do next. hehe









8:45.... Angry Mode! Just because of one "STUPID, IDIOT, FUCKING, CB" bread that extra charge by the cashier when I bought bread from orchard. My mum keep nagging at me about it. Is just a Buck more of money, why have to keep nagging on me? I did check when the cashier was scanning the bread. Why should I check again on the receipt when both my hand were full of things? Fuck!!!! is that something in my mind that put me into angry mode now? Sorry.... need time to cool down

9:15.... why am i the one who is wrong? Why have to blame on me? Why I get cheated and yet I am the one who is wrong? Is just how you looking at a half glass of water..... is half full? or half empty?

8 comments:

b said...

As long as in your conscious you know you have done nothing wrong, other people has no right to judge at all. Unless they look down on you becoz they notice that you are alone?? Screw them! You dun need such pple around you, and all the more you should not be bothered by them.

Understand how that feels when u feel like everything is your fault, no matter what you do or how good your intentions are.. Dun let negative things affect you too much. Trust me, is no good to your well-being and to your character.

Scorpio said...

u know, using the appropriate word make a great difference...

I believe that mum is feelin angry for u... not at u... but u know her, she is not good wif words...

juz like when u r angry, someone ask u "why u so angry?"... seem like the person think that there is no need for u to be angry... but maybe, that person is juz trying to find out what happen... but instead of askin "hey, wat happen?"... he/she use inappropriate words which causes misunderstanding...

We are all guilty of it at some point... but wo xiang xin... i believe my family always stood by me no matter wat happen...

SimonFeiXiang said...

:) anger management that I lack of... sorry! let me be myself for few more days before a full change. "to forget, and forgive"

M said...

i'm sure ur mum wasn't scolding u. chill and cheer up! :)

M said...

sorry.. i typed the name wrongly.. in case u're wondering, this is Ah Lai.

大妹 said...

If we didn't care, we would have let it go. Just like when you made wrong decision, I can just stood by and watch. But I didn't. That's what family are for.

Scorpio said...

totally agree.

*wink* (my evil twin)

SimonFeiXiang said...

Thank you everyone.... The main problem still lie on me. I will get that change as soon as possible. :)