Alone

A day walking alone at orchard road, a day found myself so lonely, a day found that everyone seem like looking down on me, a day have a lot of though but not able to organize them, a day don't even dare to look at others when walking, a day have no idea on what I going to do next, a day like this..... WASTED!!!!

I went to Muji and got some material to rearrange my life. Some small exercise books that same size as those we used in Sec school and some color pencils. I am going to note down Cooking menu, iPhone apps ideas, photography skill and gift ideas on all these books. I believe that organized life is the way to move on.

2 songs from Wang Lee Hom... time to do something and everyone know what I going to do next. hehe









8:45.... Angry Mode! Just because of one "STUPID, IDIOT, FUCKING, CB" bread that extra charge by the cashier when I bought bread from orchard. My mum keep nagging at me about it. Is just a Buck more of money, why have to keep nagging on me? I did check when the cashier was scanning the bread. Why should I check again on the receipt when both my hand were full of things? Fuck!!!! is that something in my mind that put me into angry mode now? Sorry.... need time to cool down

9:15.... why am i the one who is wrong? Why have to blame on me? Why I get cheated and yet I am the one who is wrong? Is just how you looking at a half glass of water..... is half full? or half empty?

Fairness of life

I have a "CHOU KENG" friend in the camp. He tried all his best just not to go outfield for this ICT. What happen next was that he managed to "siam" the whole exercise. Good for him..... but when came to all the administrative works he was in hell. All those things that were nasty all fell onto him. My point here is that SOMEONE or SOMEHOW things will fine tune themselves. The best part was that my dearest friend(Darren) went over to this "CHOU KENG" guy and laugh at him. And the guy went over to Darren's bed when he was sleeping and slam the whole bed. WTF? Was that going to make up anything? Let him be... just another idiot in life. This is just one of the example. The biggest KARMA here was that.... for those "CHOU KENG" people that we have in the camp. They will have to redo the whole exercise again during November!!!! WAHAHAHA!

Most importantly, those people who don't have the quality in themselves will never have a chance to survive long enough in this society. Time will tell, it just not the time yet.

This blog is transforming to my daily soon rather than record my thinking.

This ICT has provided me a long spare time for my life revolution. Although most of the time my brain was blank due to physical training. I considered this ICT as my best break in this year provided I never go to HK end of year. Lot of things has been set for the rest of the year and I planned to change my working environment. Not by quit my job but to change the system as well as the way I handle my job. Giving myself one last chance for a year more to stay in my current job. I will do something to prove my value and let those people regret of how they judged me.

Is a very very nice sunny saturday. I will be going down to the Cement Jungle at orchard to walk around. At least I will not get mosquito bite there.

Nice song by G.E.M.

Satisfy result for this weekend bookout

I got myself pretty good result on how much works I did during this weekend although most of the time is sitting on my sofa. Would like to see more things to be done on next week because my life will be back to normal again after this reservist.

Praying hard that the sky juice don't fall during my 4 days 3 nights. I don't like wet underwear feeling. hahaha!

Anyway, I would like to see myself change after this reservist (of course to the better one).

I flipped through my photo album and found that medium length hair suited me the most. Shall I keep my hair longer a bit? :)

My doggy not very happy about wearing his Jersey again. But I think it will do him good by not scratching his body so much. Hope he can recover soon.

Songs

泳:在你的記憶裡面有一個我
在你最痛苦的時候陪你度過
難過過了天晴朗了我就走
峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的夢
在你的面前我不必保留
還來不及對你說遲到的我的心動
泳:你的好你的壞
峯:我的脾氣你最懂
泳:我不要你來心疼我
峯:我不要你離開我
合:明天的以後我們會懂
失戀的挫折讓人變更成熟
泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情
峯:因為有你
給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣
其實也想好好愛你
泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心
峯:我不怕會傷心
合:對不起我對你
再好再親密都不能在一起
峯:最後看你在別人懷裡
泳:有天我會找到我的唯一
峯:我並不是你的唯一
合:還微笑祝福你

峯:你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的夢
在你的面前我不必保留
泳:我從來沒對你說壓抑的我的心動
峯:我的好我的壞我的脾氣你最懂
泳:我不要你來心疼我
合:明天的以後我們會懂
失戀的挫折讓人變更成熟

泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情
峯:因為有你
給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣
其實也想好好愛你
泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心
峯:我不怕會傷心
合:對不起我對你
再好再親密都不能在一起
峯:最後看你在別人懷裡
泳:有天我會找到我的唯一
峯:我並不是你的唯一
合:還微笑祝福你

泳:愛情總讓人折磨
峯:所以我們才選擇
合:做比情人更好的朋友
泳:我對你感覺勝過愛情
峯:因為有你
給我勇氣給我用不完的運氣
其實也想好好愛你
泳:只怕到最後不小心讓你傷心
峯:我不怕會傷心

合:對不起我對你
再好再親密都不能在一起
峯:最後看你在別人懷裡
泳:有天我會找到我的唯一
峯:我並不是你的唯一
合:還微笑祝福你

Another book out day that back to civil life

Hey, Back again but this time round I am good and fine. Nothing I am going to complain much cos some improvement done in myself. Will list down later.... Now I am stuck with this song that from a Lovely silver iPod.

Over you - Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Very very nice song and Lyric ESPECIALLY!

Few things that have been sorted out during this reservist. I have some must do things before end of this year

• Repaint my Room
• Get new furniture for my room
• Create my very first iPhone apps
• Complete my Diploma course no matter how my school going to screw it up
• Start of my driving license course
• Make myself less "ah Beng" and think positive always
• of course one last thing - Improve my english

Timeline will be schedule during the next 4 days 3 nights of IN CAMP exercise. I will need pen and paper to mark down and draw out my final plan.

This week, went for 3 days 2 nights exercise with not much Kissed from Mosquito. Thanks to my dear camp mate Samson who brought me to army market and got a pair of nice gloves. It was kind of LONG exercise to me as I have not been went through this for long time. Tired, butt pained (as I sat for long time), back pained (as I have nothing to lean against), neck pained (as I have to sleep with helmet on) and leg pained (as I have not much space in the tank and have to fold my leg for long hours). Anyway, I felt like I backed to 7 years ago after the whole exercise. At least I have all my closest friends to chiong with me. FYI, most of my friends has not went to the exercise as they have provided lot of stupid excuses. I didn't blame them as they still have no motive in their life. I started to view things in a more positive view and "WHY" they behaved in "this" way.

Lot of though running through my brain right now. I think I have to stop cos I don't wish to type out all my though with Poor english! haha

tomorrow I will be back to office in the very early morning to capture the sun Rise as well as settle some email. Hope tomorrow will be a sunny day!

手札情緣

Same theory, different result when you looking at the same thing in different angle.

Why? why would that happen? why I will be able to see clearly when I am not involve in but fell into it when apply on my situation?

Next week I will give myself a best gift by go to CBD area to take the sunset in a form of TimeLapse. That is what I wanna do for so so long. I will love to see the Big Wheel turning.....

Love this quote... If I able to say it out that will be great "The way I see it, I got three choices. One, I can shoot him. Two, I can kick the crap out of him. Or three, I leave you. Well, all that's no good. You see, 'cause none of those options get me you."

Condition

I am suffering from this term

Temporomandibular Joint Disorder (TMJ Disorder)

for my Jaw as well as ear pain. The causes may lead to my wisdom tooth on my upper right. Because if I have to use my tongue to push my wisdom tooth, I will be able to feel the pain. So, Simon will go for dental check up after reservist. Definitely will go as that is no joke.

Right ear has gained back 90% of hearing. Good sign!!!

Tonight dinner was very very nice and I think I actually consume my whole of last week food into my stomach. Next week reservist can have lesser food as I have 3 days 2 nights to go. Biscuit will be my best friend... pic attached below

Here comes the boring man who took out his new toy and tried to capture time lapse for his very first time. Hope you guys will like it.

You know it? Really Know it? Shut up please....

Trying hard not to listen to others conversation as I knew that I am going to be frustrated by them. But somehow my left ear was having some hearing problem and it leaded me to listen much more carefully on any sound.

I am not the best in anything but somehow the best thing that I knew about is technology. People around me was so affected by the stupid iPhone 4 antenna problem which IT WASN'T A PROBLEM AT ALL. May all people around me stop mentioned it again.

I will try to look for some special spare time to play around my new accessary for my 550D.... the thing that I waited for so long.

Mmmm.... using those normal handphone is such a pleasure that they don't really need to charge so often compare to iPhone. But the consequences is that, nothing to play with it... only call and sms! Stupid!!!

Sammi still the best and I like the lyric so much... sweet!

Wa... HeBe new song and the way it film the video is so nice! I can learn from it

p.s. After typing this not very long blog... my finger itchy again.... scratching hard now!

Back to civil life

I think I am suffering inside the stupid camp rather than enjoy. Most of my body system has been destroyed by this in camp training.

• My right ear is "Weeeeeee" now... can't really hear properly due to some idiot firing beside me.

• Both of my hands suffer heavy attack by Mosquito during our night exercise. Pic below

• Legs suffer from Boots that long haven't been wear. Bruise on them but lucky I didn't get blister during my 8 km walk thanks to the Lovely protect stickers.

• Shoulder in pain due to carry of heavy weapons. Why I have so many heavy weapons? All those people in the world know how to CHOA KENG... I am the only one who don't but somehow people still think that I am not hardworking enough.
• Back pain due to sit in the Armor Vehicle for more than few hours in the same position.
• My left Jaw still in pain whenever I was trying to open my mouth to eat
• Left wrist suppose to be recover from last year injury when I was in Camp training. But the pain is back this year again.

I even carried some of my phobia to this year whereby I suffer a fall from the army lorry. I don't dare to carry more than 2 things when I climb up the lorry. Such a Useless me.... Sad!!! Last time i can even jump over some low wall without any problem. But this year both my legs were cramp in the mid air of the jump. And landed with a crappy pattern.

I love the song below so much that is from ITO YUNA....

"Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure"

p.s. After my mum looked at my hands, she cried and blame the government for bring her son to this kind of place for torture. My answer to that is..... Low Education + Don't know how to Choa Keng = The idiot in life = Simon Liu

actually I ate very very little when I was in camp. 3 days never went to do big business.... cos less intake = Less Output

Last before I go into reservist

So much things happened today. Anyway, I have enjoyed myself so much this weekend and I hope that every weekend will be special to me in the near future.

Time to pack up soon. But before hand I will have to meet up my old friend from Japan. Time is up... going down to meet him


1:36 am.... Yeah.. just got my TC-80N3 remote for my canon EOS!

6:14 am.... something still missing for my ICT... looking it up and down still... booked a cab at 7 am. Whole body no strength cos of not enough sleep. Don't tell anybody that I brought 2 phones in. One no camera - for show. One K810i - for my daily task which provide me internet connection. Who the hell will take pic about army? stupid!!!!

Missing.... things

My room is full of junks and I realized that I lost something important. I have been looking for it up and down before I remembered that "thing" was lend to someone. I will have to arrange my leave application next week so that I will be able to rearrange my room as well as re-decorate it.

The iPhone's earphone always spoil at the right time when I am going to change to the next version. Good job steve.... or should I say good job simon who like to put it anyhow?

I was trying to bring my laptop out to living room for blogging. But I carelessly stepped on my Brandy's leg. Oops... Sorry! Brandy!!!

I was watching "家好月圓“ and realized that TVB show like to pair up a couple whose were in different society's level. Hahaha.... I will be able to predict every single show in the future for those TVB series.

Processing

Stomach Pain (due to lack of foods and drinks for the past 12 hrs) --> Woke up from sleep on Sofa --> Big business @ T --> Blog reply from B --> Hot shower --> EVERYTHING SEEM TO BE BETTER NOW!

Since I was able to point out all my mistakes. I already knew the question in my mind. I will have to look for the answer to solve everything out and my life will be back on track.....

The most mysteries thing happen on my social network. My friend's list was getting smaller and smaller. Sound logical? I don't think so... but somehow I am experiencing it. Never mind, get rids of those ah Zhu and ah Gou from my life and keep all my best friends. Best friends not "true" friends that they declared themselves to be.

Thank you for all the concern from my friends. My life is not that suck yet.... Have a laugh on below video clip.

11:56am I realized how important is a blog as well as daily. They are the best friend for those people who do not have close friend. Yeah.... I have become part of this gang. Anyway when I reached home last night. My mother sensed that I was not in good mood. She asked me what happen and I kept quiet. Early in the morning she went to market and got my favorite drink. Sweet.... and Thank you mother! Only you know me well

Nothing

Being myself in this world for 30 years time. I have achieved nothing so far.

Sitting all alone @ boat quay, my phone was in silent if I never turn on any music. I have failed to be a good lover as I was not able to work hard toward the future. I have failed to be a good friend as I was not able to pay attention to my close friends. I have failed to be a good brother as I didn't trust my sister's advices. I have failed to be a good son as I spend most of my time on MAC when I was home while my mother was working so hard to manage the home. I have failed to be a good colleague as I was not able to help out much at work. I have failed to be a good owner as my dear doggy always carry a sad face when he was trying to get my attention while I was busy on my MAC. I have failed to be a good blogger as my english standard is so poor that people have a hard time to understand.

Was that a warning sign? I am nothing to anyone right now.... seem like everyone can live happily without my present.

I am having nothing! May consider to move my blog or somehow close it.

I got myself a complaint

I have received a complaint from one of my close friend mentioned that my blog contained a lot of grammar mistake and hard to understand. This close friend of mine gave up on reading my blog eventually and logged a complain to the blog owner. Oh god.... It is time to do something about it. So, from today onward I am going to spend more time on correcting grammar mistake on each of my upcoming post.

Somehow I would like to thank you my friend for spending so much time and tried so hard to understand some of my stupid posts that not written in english (of course I wrote every posts in english but in broken term).

4 more days to my annual reservist. I have a lot of things have to pack this time round. And I am going to get more foods on this sunday. I will be able to talk cock sing song with all my old buddies soon.

Back to irritating blog

Haha... I just put the stupid music element beside of my blog which is the song that I keep listening for most of my day. Hope people will like it as well as the blog background has been change due to I need a new image to present myself to the world.

I am trying hard to get myself back to track once again. Hopefully everything will work it out the way I want it to be after my reservist for 3 weeks. That is a very long reservist I ever have. Just pray hard that our A-Tech will pass and I don't have to do much for the next 3 years. Yeah!!!!

Lost and Gain... No pain No gain!!! Everyone only have 24 hrs per day. How to squeeze so many things in a day without screw it up? That will need a lot of planning and determination.

Some friends of mine in office that claim to be my "true friend" has blocked me in a chat software. That is TRUE friend..... thank for leave me as soon as I fully put my trust in you. That is the way how people treat me when I have nothing to contribute. When I have no common topic. When I just trying my best to be friend with them. When I did so much yet I have ask for nothing in return. THANK YOU!!!! YOU have let me see the real world....

Appreciation or sick of it?

This post is suppose to remind myself that even repeat the same thing again and again in everyday life. I need to appreciate what I am doing as that is a kind of happiness.

Love is the funniest thing that it base on this chemical name Benzole lactamic acid (苯氨基丙酸) to react accordingly. Why is that chemical keep decreasing when the time that spend together getting longer? Why can't it stay at the same level for whole life? Have read a lot of chinese post today from SWEETSWEET.NET and manage to conclude all post into today's blog. I will say that as 2 person just getting together. Whenever they do something for each others. It will be a bonus as you do not have any requirement from you love one. But once both party getting together long enough to share their life together. The demand just getting larger and larger. Especially when they start to compare with each other that who gave out their LOVE the most. The ugly truth is shown and no equation can ever calculate who LOVE the most.

一男一女走到一起..身體裡面會有一種激素..

苯氨基丙酸就會增加分泌..令你情緒很高漲..會有一種喜悅的感覺..

當濃度不斷增加..兩個人同時受到這種激素的影響..感情就會去到最濃..

這種狀態和關係..就可以定義為愛情..

uncomforted teeth

Sooner or later I will have to remove my wisdom teeth as they keep biting on my fresh around my Jaws. And I have a hard time to open my mouth when I wound like to have my meals. Hai.... Why they called wisdom teeth? becos those who remove them is clever, those who keep them is stupid... wahaha

Some rare friends of mine call and message me today. And what is regrading? As usual, make use of my knowledge. So do I look stupid to give out my knowledge to help them? Yes!!!

Sometime I have to say that being friend is base on a simple equation

Friend = you make use of me + I make use of you

if one of the condition is wrong. No Friend

Soon I will have to review my friend list as most of my friend really know how to make use of others.

Question and Trust

Such a boring sunday that I have nothing great about my life to blog with. I have plugged in my HIFI system to my lappy but somehow I didn't play any song out. Think I am sick of all the songs that I have and need more time to rearrange iTunes.

Here is my question of the day. Will you wait for your love one to tell you certain things when you in doubt (i mean not even hint your love one that you wanna know about it and let them tell you naturally) or you will just post as a casual question and get the answer?

My answer is A! I choose not to ask at all.... ! hehehe

Get Myself Back

The round sun returns to the blue sea that is spread out in front of my eyes
And the light that rains down from the clear sky cleanses my slightly weary heart

I was always so stubborn
I even lied to myself
No destination is printed
On my unrolled, white map

*The seasons shift again and carry a new foreboding
I won't understand it if I keep my eyes closed
Even though this world is so beautiful
I substituted my unsuppressable and dark feelings for the right path
Get myself back again
I wasn’t born for the sake of feeling pain

I’m all right. Everything will surely turn out okay

I won’t fear standing alone if it’s for the sake of protecting the things I believe in
I travel back and forth to the same place in search of my lost feelings
Like a small wave

I was only looking ahead
And was almost engulfed by insecurity
Right now the important words
Lie in the scenery I saw back then

*repeat

I’m all right. Everything will surely turn out okay

I scoop up the tears running down my cheeks
Lured by the wind the stars start to shine
And my tear-streaked cheeks sparkle even brighter
I wave bye-bye to my complaints and excuses
Freed from my heavy shackles I can start to walk again

*repeat

I have overcome everything that has been thrown at me
(Now I’m crying to get myself back again)
I will wipe my tears away because there’s still so much ahead of me
(Now I’m crying to get myself back again)
I’m all right now. Everything will surely turn out okay