After a few days of stupid posting here and there. That is the only word I think it will be the best to suit into all my questions.
This is how I sub the word to everything. As long as everything that we did and it have no better way to work it out at that point of time. This is called "no regret" and that is the answer for my question.
If my love one will able to point out what I did is wrong at that point of time. I will learn and I will change to make it better. I will rather have no secret and no regret in a relationship.
So... I am good to go now! Time to start my engine....