I am moving backward

No typo error above. I really moving backward. The feeling is so suck that my brain is totally blank right now. No feeling, no nothing! Why am I still have to do something that I use to do in the past for today? Why must I push myself back to the past? I wanna move on. I suppose to have a new life.

Time to think hard so that I know what is the thing that I need to get rid of.

*note - I am editing the post after a NAP

Can't believe that I am that tired until I actually fall asleep after dinner at 9:30 till not 11:30. Haven't shower yet cos I am thinking what will happen if I go shower and gain back all the energy? Never mind, life still go on. Looking at my sister beside me who fall asleep already but massaging her leg at the same time. So enjoy in her own world. I may consider doing the same later after shower.

Anyway, this week I am quite happy with everything I have done so far. Keep it up and hope that nobody screw me up further. Saw a FB post from my colleague that is kind of sick of the current job.... I do agree with that as their is no challenge anymore in this job but lot of shit. Let look forward for my stupid BMC to complete my diploma course so that I can have a better chance to prepare for new challenge somewhere else. BOSS suck hard as useless people keep staying around me whereby those people have better quality support all those idiot....! GO TO HELL and get your KARMA!

*note again - I am just after shower continues this post 12:00 now

Refresh after shower, really! Jialet.... anyway, since I start this stupid job topic and my BOSS is already involve here. I might as well go all the way. To dear boss, if you happen to not knowing what I am talking above - you are IDIOT! If you know what i am talking above - you are simply a person who like people to lick your Fxxxing boots that you wearing everyday that is why all those useless people may stay around, doing nothing and JUST LICK LICK LICK your boots.

Somehow I was chatting with one of the user today and complaining how useless is application team people when their application not running and start blaming the PC got problem. Yet, this application engineer saw the chat box. User was saying that lucky my name has been changed but who care. I am just stating the fact and I am afraid of no one. Come and challenge me with the knowledge on trade floor.... I am fucking 3 years old here!!!! And to add in more oil. My colleague ask me why I am still here after 3 years of torture. Errrmmmm.... Can I slap him? Why must ask this kind of question when you know the answer? Never mind, I am just glad that I am still here. I am just glad that I know all the good people here. All I really want to do is to transform myself into someone that change the usual way of work flow to make them all suit it my way before I move on. Everything is in my hand, I choose my life! I own it!

I have a good sleep final

Is raining early in the morning @ 4:35. Waiting for my usual cab driver now at blogging at the same time as I setup the easiest way to blog by sending email straight to my blog address.

I have a good sleep last night and there is nothing to do with the early rain. Is becos something has been settled by itself. Something that is so important to my next milestone of life. Thank you! Is all clear now and I may able to move on.

My cab is here!

Is so quiet now

I don't know what happen in myself as I keep waking up in the middle of the night without any reasons. I keep wondering what is bother me but couldn't find out the answer. Right now is 3:55. I have been tried very hard to fall back to sleep since I woke up at 3:30. Anyway, thank to my "un-shutdown" Macbook that is why I am blogging right now. Full of though in my mind yet couldn't solve out. Is just like a huge mess of things inside a room but some how no boxes to contain the items so that can arrange nicely.

No worry, it will get sort out eventually as long as I know what is the goal in my life.

What if a person left you in life is so important to you but somehow you are not able to figure out the mix feeling inside you and show others your emotion? Is that called cruel? or heartless? or cold blood? I don't know, that is how I feel right now. Can't figure out but somehow I able to list down the Goods and Bads for everything. Maybe I am just being too calculative.

Time to really wake up now and prepare for a new day. "GOOD MORNING TUE" as usual.... I am very lucky on Tuesday so far. So let the luck flow into me right now.

BTW, I am going to move all those funny photos that I have with my family to the side bar. With the speed of my blogging right now. Tomolo the post will be gone man. I am very deeply affected in blogging! Maybe is the life changing state. More rubbish and though to be post here.

Moving on Need a lot of courage

Today mark the new chapter in life. Everything seem to be change just like that. My scar during the Tioman trip is in pain now. I don't understand why. Think that is part of my Karma that striking back. I will accept whatever that plan ahead. I know what I am doing. No matter what, I will go to the destination that I wish to go.

Raining day somehow at 6 something but already inside office. Alone for 3 and half hour before the next shift come in. Then received a email from Supervisor that Kenny have to go over to capsquare to help the idiot over there as he fall sick. What the hell is going on? Why people never do anything and fall sick can still keep his fucking job here....? What is going on? In the end I called up supervisor and make up my point that 2 person down and yet you still want 1 more engineer to help out. Am I look like superman? or my salary is 5 digit?

Lucky all my other engineers come in time. We enjoy ourselves around till end of work.

Blogging again

Inspire by someone deeply, I am back to my blogging time once again. Feeling that facebook is like no secret and always get stupid comment by others. Blog is still a better place for people to understand me more.

Today I got myself to run for 6km as the route that I usually run on has been diverted by MRT construction. Very happy feeling as I have my time to do those things that I love to. Especially those picture that I post below. Great feeling and I can manage my time well to learn more things.

Finish the TVB series called "when lane merge"! Such a nice show an the ending is so good that suit my point of view toward LOVE. She sacrify her own happiness just to let the guy have his own happiness. Love is not about to own that person but to make the person to have his/her happiness.



this is the trailer of the Gundam movie that I follow for this past 2 years.

I never like gundam at all in the past. But somehow this show has put me into this crazy model and comic world. Why? It is because the very first season that show 2 years ago. My daddy was sitting on the bed behind me, looking at me watching this show. After season 2 and finally coming to the end of everything that show on big screen as Movie. I will still have the illusion that my daddy actually sitting behind me and still looking at me while I watching this series.

At least he no longer suffer now. He will be happy if he able to see the photo that I took and make it as GIF to show off. Thank you father!

Family photo

I don't understand why everyone got 4 shots and whereby I only have 3 shots. Very hard to sync leh.... The photographer that going to take me next time please make sure is 4 shots! hor



This is the very first photo that make up all these here.... thank sister! great idea! We having lot of fun




Nice Hair


The Lamest of the day


More Lame cos not enough photo to make it a nice sequence
The most funny thing is that someone tot I jump very high that is why my photo shot is so small.

My expensive Hobby has been paid off

Got myself back to photography mood again as my whole family go for this wonderful outing at Marina. Even my mum enjoy so much. Thank to my Canon 550D DSLR camera!

Some of the photo will only available here as my sister don't wish to let anyone see in facebook. Please be patience as I will upload more when the long process of editing is complete. Hehe

First of all... let see this 4 pic that feature "should be only me" but somehow..... one person keep appear behind. And I have no photo of myself only for the whole day....

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone (Official Music Video )

I miss you!!!

Doing really almost nothing for this week during work. I don't really know where is my spirit gone to. But somehow I manage to cover others backside. What am I doing? should I do something for myself instead of others? What is the point of doing that when nobody going to appreciate it? Is this a cycle that when you work too long in the same department and you start to feeling sick of being there? I think I have to find the answer that will solve this problem.

Weekend is here... and I hope that I am going to enjoy the outing with my family later as we not going out for so long.

Love story

Why we always watching those show or movie about the process of getting 2 persons together. But not after that? Is because the argument and conflict will show up. End up both of them separate. That is the ugly truth but somehow apply on most of the relationship.

I would like to point out that trust and doubt is the main problem. They doubt and guessing are they the one that their LOVE one is looking for. Once they know the answer is true they fall in love with each other. But somehow after a period of time. They start to doubt each other again whether they still love each other or not. Isn't it funny? Since both of you fall in love because of trust. In the end will have to separate due to doubt.

Why leh?

iPhone ANTENNA SONG

If you don't want an iPhone 4.... Don't buy it!!!

If you bought one and don't like it... Bring it Back!!!!

It seems like my whatever illness that build inside my body has gone and is time to come back once again after this annual sick period. The bad thing is that, I am going back for reservist when my body has fully recover. WTH

REGRET

After a few days of stupid posting here and there. That is the only word I think it will be the best to suit into all my questions.
This is how I sub the word to everything. As long as everything that we did and it have no better way to work it out at that point of time. This is called "no regret" and that is the answer for my question.
If my love one will able to point out what I did is wrong at that point of time. I will learn and I will change to make it better. I will rather have no secret and no regret in a relationship.
So... I am good to go now! Time to start my engine....

Trust you

Song: trust you
Artist: Itou Yuna
Album: trust you
Other: Ending song for the anime Gundam 00 Second Season

hana ha kaze ni yureodoru youni
ame ha daichi wo uroosu youni
kono sekai ha yorisoiai ikiteru noni
naze hito ha kizutsukeau no
naze wakare ha otozureru no

Flowers dance in the wind,
rain moistens the Earth…
If everyone in this world want to live together,
why do they hurt each other?
Why do they separate?

kimi ga tooku ni ittemo mada
itsumo kono kokoro mannaka
ano yasahii egao de umetsukusareta mama
dakishimeta kimi no KAKERA ni
itami kanjitemo mada tsunagaru kara
shiniteru yo mata aeru to
I’m waiting for your love

No matter how far you go, you’ll still
be in my heart.
With that tender smile, I get buried and
held in a fragment of you…
Even if you feel pain…we’re tied together,
I believe we’ll meet one again.
I’m waiting for your love.

I love you, I trust you
kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
hikari demo yami demo futari dakara shinjiaeru no
hanasanaide

I love you, I trust you
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
I love you, I trust you
be it in light or darkness, because we trust each other,
so don’t let go.

sekai no hate wo dare ga mita no
tabi no owari wo dare ga tsugeru no
ima ha kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo
shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii
sono saki ni hikari ga matsu kara

Who has seen the world’s end?
Who informed us of the Journey’s End?
I can’t see the answer now, but even in long nights,
I hope you’ll continue on the path you believe in
because a light is waiting for you.

kimi ga oshietekureta uta ha
ima mo kono kokoro no mannaka
ano yasashii koe to tomoni hiibiteiru
afureru kimochi no shizuku ga
atatakaku hoho tsutau
tsuyoku naru ne shinjiteru yo tsunagatteru to
I’m always by your side

The song you’ve taught me
still lies within my heart.
Together with you, that tender voice resounds in my heart.
The fragment of my overflowing emotions
streak down my warm cheeks.
I’ve become strong right? I believe, we’re tied together.
I’m always by your side.

I love you, I trust you
kimi no tame ni nagasu namida ga
I love you, I trust you
ai wo oshietekureta donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayottemo
soba ni iru yo

I love you, I trust you
for you, I shed these tears.
I love you, I trust you
you taught me what love is. Even if you get lost on your way,
I’ll be with you.

Waiting for you love,
always by your side,
you’re the one that I love,
you’re the one that I trust,
you’re the only one.

I love you, I trust you
kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
hikari demo yami demo
I love you, I trust you
kanashimi demo yorokobi demo
I love you, I trust you
kimi no subete wo mamoritai

I love you, I trust you
I hope you’ll share your loneliness with me.
I love you, I trust you
be it in light or darkness.
I love you, I trust you
be it sadness or happiness.
I love you, I trust you
I want to protect your everything.

donna ni kimi ga machi ni mayottemo
soba ni iru yo futari dakara shinjiaeru no
hanasanaide

Even if you get lost on your way,
I’ll be with you because we trust each other…
Don’t let go.

Yuna Ito-Endless story (English Lyric)

Endless Story (ENGLISH VERSION):

If you haven't changed your mind
Then I want you by my side Tonight

I'm so tired of always having to bluff
Everytime I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It's so hard to say I'm sorry

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don't go away

Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends, I'm missing you
please don't let go of my hand

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

iOS 4.1 doesn't fix the iPhone 4's death grip antenna issue

Who will be the FUCKING idiot don't use a casing on the best phone in this planet....? Come on man... get your life... stop posting this kind of stupid threat online

Resting day finally

Even though this week I am not the one who work the 5am shift. But somehow my body is very tired. Wake up frequently during the middle of night. And I am not able to get back to sleep after each wake up. Is a kind of torturing. I am not sure what is really in my mind that keeping myself so busy!
I hope that I will have a very good night for the coming 3 night and get back the momentum for my life.
Today is a very idiot day. As I get myself into misunderstanding suing the morning part and it seem like no one really understand me at all. Afternoon part is the army in camp training that made me walk 3 round of the stupid camp. What the hell.....
Anyway, my lowest point in life is coming soon. I can predict it as most of my things that around me start to get rotten up. Let it be and push me to the hell. Cos I really want to see the HELL!

Trust and Freedom

As age goes up, the network of friends has just expanded to the max. And I think that this network will shrink along the way. So what if the other half of you trying to catch up with all the friends that they have? Will you let them go? I mean will you let them go alone? or you will follow them through the whole process?

I will think that by following through is a kind of Romantic that both of them share the joy together. But the main point here is that, did you ever think of the though that your other half have? Will they feel that they have lost their freedom? or just because they are not able to trust their other half?

Now I realize that trust and freedom will have to addin one more thing called "Communication". If a couple will able to tell the truth toward each other on how they feel toward the situation. Will it be nicer to let your other half to really enjoy themselves? Will you just have all your trust on whatever they do when you know that they are going to be fine? Will you stop calling them when they are having their gathering?

Question here is that if your other half having a lot of admirer. Will you get jealous or you have all your trust on them?

I am still having a deep though about this... trying to figure out the balance in between.

Between Own and Treasure

I would have to say I choose to treasure rather than own it. Nothing in this world you can really own them. And how to define own? To have it all the way? Even get jealous when your other half is meeting someone else or getting anything from others? That is not the way to behave....

For me, I trust the person that I love. I believe anything that she said. I know that she feel the way I feel toward the same problem. I believe that something I don't need to say it out but she will tell me what is going on.

This is how I treasure, spend the time with your love one in quality.... not quantity.... seeing more of each other doesn't mean Love the other more. Is how you treat the moment when 2 person come together. Is how much you treasure the time when both spending together.

The path is going to get create

Someone has told me to focus but I can't as there are lot of distraction in my life. But it seem like all these minor problem has solved it along the way so far. I am glad to see that the trouble that I going to have will get less. And time for a good game in life. No let down and no drag back. It is time for me to follow what it written on my blog. �翔！

达明一派 今天應該很高興

鬧市這天 燈影串串

報章說今天的姿採比美當天

用了數天 反復百遍

我將心聲附加祝福信箋寫滿

偉業獨自在美洲 很多新打算

瑪莉現活在澳洲 天天溫暖

望望照片 追憶串串

某一個熱鬧聖誕夜重現目前

永達共大傑唱詩 歌聲多醉甜

秀麗伴著樂敏肩 溫馨的臉

多麼多麼的高興

多麼多麼的溫暖

快樂人共並肩

今天應該很高興

今天應該很溫暖

只要願幻想彼此 仍在面前

我獨自望舊照片 追憶起往年

我默默又再寫 仿佛相見

i am feeling like this lyric

Passion and Love = Crazy

someone beside me mentioned a very familiar phrase that I used to think about it. "If you were in the job that belong to your passion. You will never have to work a single day!"

But will it happen to most of the people? It didn't even apply on my current job too. Yes, I do like computer and troubleshooting. But how about it add on some political, command, OT and unreasonable request? And I don't even have my own time to work on those difficult question whereby I treat them as challenges. No body really can enjoy their own passion if money is involved. This is fact....

To me the greatest phrase in this universe is "Progressive increase". Win a soccer match and become champion for the year - Easy. Win few more soccer matches and crown yourself as champion in the following year - Hard. Having a great idea and turn it to income stream - Easy. Keeping your company alive and earn through every years of financial statement - Hard.

That is the point I would like to point out. Determination and some prediction of future will lead you to success. But to keep it going, you will need more than that. I am still trying to figure out how much more it needed but I will say it will be alot more than Determination every man can give.

Learning is a choice

So many people we heard from news that they are young with talent and earn a lot of money. I was wondering is it when the age has pass 30 and nothing is going to happen in life anymore? And you will be fixed in the cruel world?

You think learning is an option? My answer is HELL no! Why you have to look forward for a better salary? Why you have to increase your living standard? But u jus don't wish to increase the power of your UNLIMITED brain? Funny? Most of us did that....

Walking alone in the rain is not a funny thing. Doing so much and get nothing is small case. But worst still, no one appreciate. Yet SORRY this word is jus like a kind of deep breath that out from the mouth. Too many sorry yet too little things done. My point of view? Don't say it if you not going to change. The world.... SUCK!!!! hard!!!!!!

Finally I fall sick

After so long I finally fall sick. But gain alot during my MC day... as I know that who is my true friends and I have set my own goal for this year. Thank for the person that appear in my life to provide me inspiration.

Quote from the movie 500 days of summer....

Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life.

But today... is the day that I realise alot of things and today is the day for another begin of life!