Nothing

Being myself in this world for 30 years time. I have achieved nothing so far.

Sitting all alone @ boat quay, my phone was in silent if I never turn on any music. I have failed to be a good lover as I was not able to work hard toward the future. I have failed to be a good friend as I was not able to pay attention to my close friends. I have failed to be a good brother as I didn't trust my sister's advices. I have failed to be a good son as I spend most of my time on MAC when I was home while my mother was working so hard to manage the home. I have failed to be a good colleague as I was not able to help out much at work. I have failed to be a good owner as my dear doggy always carry a sad face when he was trying to get my attention while I was busy on my MAC. I have failed to be a good blogger as my english standard is so poor that people have a hard time to understand.

Was that a warning sign? I am nothing to anyone right now.... seem like everyone can live happily without my present.

I am having nothing! May consider to move my blog or somehow close it.

I got myself a complaint

I have received a complaint from one of my close friend mentioned that my blog contained a lot of grammar mistake and hard to understand. This close friend of mine gave up on reading my blog eventually and logged a complain to the blog owner. Oh god.... It is time to do something about it. So, from today onward I am going to spend more time on correcting grammar mistake on each of my upcoming post.

Somehow I would like to thank you my friend for spending so much time and tried so hard to understand some of my stupid posts that not written in english (of course I wrote every posts in english but in broken term).

4 more days to my annual reservist. I have a lot of things have to pack this time round. And I am going to get more foods on this sunday. I will be able to talk cock sing song with all my old buddies soon.

Back to irritating blog

Haha... I just put the stupid music element beside of my blog which is the song that I keep listening for most of my day. Hope people will like it as well as the blog background has been change due to I need a new image to present myself to the world.

I am trying hard to get myself back to track once again. Hopefully everything will work it out the way I want it to be after my reservist for 3 weeks. That is a very long reservist I ever have. Just pray hard that our A-Tech will pass and I don't have to do much for the next 3 years. Yeah!!!!

Lost and Gain... No pain No gain!!! Everyone only have 24 hrs per day. How to squeeze so many things in a day without screw it up? That will need a lot of planning and determination.

Some friends of mine in office that claim to be my "true friend" has blocked me in a chat software. That is TRUE friend..... thank for leave me as soon as I fully put my trust in you. That is the way how people treat me when I have nothing to contribute. When I have no common topic. When I just trying my best to be friend with them. When I did so much yet I have ask for nothing in return. THANK YOU!!!! YOU have let me see the real world....

Appreciation or sick of it?

This post is suppose to remind myself that even repeat the same thing again and again in everyday life. I need to appreciate what I am doing as that is a kind of happiness.

Love is the funniest thing that it base on this chemical name Benzole lactamic acid (苯氨基丙酸) to react accordingly. Why is that chemical keep decreasing when the time that spend together getting longer? Why can't it stay at the same level for whole life? Have read a lot of chinese post today from SWEETSWEET.NET and manage to conclude all post into today's blog. I will say that as 2 person just getting together. Whenever they do something for each others. It will be a bonus as you do not have any requirement from you love one. But once both party getting together long enough to share their life together. The demand just getting larger and larger. Especially when they start to compare with each other that who gave out their LOVE the most. The ugly truth is shown and no equation can ever calculate who LOVE the most.

一男一女走到一起..身體裡面會有一種激素..

苯氨基丙酸就會增加分泌..令你情緒很高漲..會有一種喜悅的感覺..

當濃度不斷增加..兩個人同時受到這種激素的影響..感情就會去到最濃..

這種狀態和關係..就可以定義為愛情..

uncomforted teeth

Sooner or later I will have to remove my wisdom teeth as they keep biting on my fresh around my Jaws. And I have a hard time to open my mouth when I wound like to have my meals. Hai.... Why they called wisdom teeth? becos those who remove them is clever, those who keep them is stupid... wahaha

Some rare friends of mine call and message me today. And what is regrading? As usual, make use of my knowledge. So do I look stupid to give out my knowledge to help them? Yes!!!

Sometime I have to say that being friend is base on a simple equation

Friend = you make use of me + I make use of you

if one of the condition is wrong. No Friend

Soon I will have to review my friend list as most of my friend really know how to make use of others.

Question and Trust

Such a boring sunday that I have nothing great about my life to blog with. I have plugged in my HIFI system to my lappy but somehow I didn't play any song out. Think I am sick of all the songs that I have and need more time to rearrange iTunes.

Here is my question of the day. Will you wait for your love one to tell you certain things when you in doubt (i mean not even hint your love one that you wanna know about it and let them tell you naturally) or you will just post as a casual question and get the answer?

My answer is A! I choose not to ask at all.... ! hehehe

Get Myself Back

The round sun returns to the blue sea that is spread out in front of my eyes
And the light that rains down from the clear sky cleanses my slightly weary heart

I was always so stubborn
I even lied to myself
No destination is printed
On my unrolled, white map

*The seasons shift again and carry a new foreboding
I won't understand it if I keep my eyes closed
Even though this world is so beautiful
I substituted my unsuppressable and dark feelings for the right path
Get myself back again
I wasn’t born for the sake of feeling pain

I’m all right. Everything will surely turn out okay

I won’t fear standing alone if it’s for the sake of protecting the things I believe in
I travel back and forth to the same place in search of my lost feelings
Like a small wave

I was only looking ahead
And was almost engulfed by insecurity
Right now the important words
Lie in the scenery I saw back then

*repeat

I’m all right. Everything will surely turn out okay

I scoop up the tears running down my cheeks
Lured by the wind the stars start to shine
And my tear-streaked cheeks sparkle even brighter
I wave bye-bye to my complaints and excuses
Freed from my heavy shackles I can start to walk again

*repeat

I have overcome everything that has been thrown at me
(Now I’m crying to get myself back again)
I will wipe my tears away because there’s still so much ahead of me
(Now I’m crying to get myself back again)
I’m all right now. Everything will surely turn out okay